Today I had to look my cheer coach of 5 years in the eyes and tell her that I was done cheering.
I know that I am going to be looked at as a quitter after this, but it honestly doesn't matter. It's time for me to start putting my happiness first. She told me that I "have to take care of myself first" and I couldn't agree more. I am so thankful to have had her in my life for 5 years. They were amazing years filled with memories that I will never forget, she has taught me so much and I know that she will support me in whatever I decide to do. I don't think I could ever thank her enough for being one of my biggest supporters. She truly cares about her cheerleaders and that's why this is so hard for me. I feel like I'm letting her down. But in the end my happiness is going to matter more. I feel like I have been betrayed by my friends recently and to stand next to them 3 days a week and act like everything is fine is something that I just can't do anymore. If I can remove myself from a toxic environment why wouldn't I? Even if things with them improve I think this will be best for me in the long-run. I already feel 100% better. So until things start to die down I suppose I'll just lay low and fly under the radar. This is just a chapter in my life and I want to be able to look back on it and say that I handled it well.
coffee&tumblr time.
6 more months until graduation ♥
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