Lose the Fear, It's Just a Crutch.

boy rants:
I have two boy rants to address and I'm putting them in the same post.

That night in your truck you told me you had changed, you told me over and over again. You told me how different things were now and that you were happy to be there with me and only me. I believed you. I believed anything that came out of your mouth. You had me wraped around your finger from the day that I met you. It was something about your blue eyes that pulled me and wouldn't let me go. I fell for you the second I saw you. That night you told me everything that I had been dying to hear. I had been waiting so long for that moment. It was the perfect moment, I finally believed that things would be different and that finally things would start falling into place. I wanted to believe that after that moment things would be different because I had been holding onto the hope of you and me for so damn long. You let me down again. You let me fall again, and just like the countless times before, you had no intention on catching me.

I never fight. I never fight for what I want. I always expect people to fight for me. I fought for you though, I've been fighting for you. I tried so hard and look where it has gotten me. You won't even talk to me. I'm still fighting and I don't know why you can't see that. I don't just want to walk away but it's getting to that point. I'm sorry for whatever I have done to make you like this.
You made me step back and evaluate what I was doing in my life, you made me into a better person in the short time span that we have known eachother. You showed more care and respect towards me than anybody ever has, I owe you a lot for that. It's hard when this is how things are turning out.