I left my heart at home.

um, hey.
I know this is really random but I miss you. I miss our countless conversations. the ones where we talked about running away to florida together and starting a family. the ones that were made up of mayday parade lyrics. I miss the morning messages. yours were my favorite. I miss staying up all night talking to you about our future. I miss how you would call me when you were drunk. it comforted me to know that I was on your mind. you called me drunk one time and told me how we were going to get married at six flags, you were so serious about it. I miss your 'I love yous'. I miss telling you how much I loved you. because I truly did. I miss everything about you. it's ridiculous.
I hated who you turned into. I hated how fast you moved on. and I hated feeling like I meant nothing to you when you meant everything to me. I hated how you kissed me when I was drunk. how you kept kissing me and telling me that you missed me. it was all lies, but I ate it up. you asked me if I would've slept with you if you hadn't had to leave and I said no. truth is, I would have. I am so glad that I didn't. because it wouldn't have meant anything to you and it would've meant so much to me. everybody that has walked out on me has taken a piece of my heart with them. you took the biggest piece. and I have a feeing I'm never going to get it back.